No problem whatsoever, I feel marvelous!

You may assume most of my stuff is Break/Liam in some way. I try to keep up with my tags and that includes the major characters that feature in any story, so if you want to see more of the others, I'd try there. But mostly, what you'll find here is Break/Liam.

I call it Break/Liam because it sounds better, to me. Don't be fooled. My Liam tops.

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RE: Icons and other graphics!

I really don't give two craps whether you credit me for my work or not. Sure, it'd be all grand and polite of you, because I do all my own colorings and a lot of effort does go into them, but bah. It's the internet and I work under a pseudonym.

But it'd be nice to others if you credited me. I say this as someone who likes to go skulking through other peoples' profiles in search of icons -- when you credit, it allows others to find the artists who made your awesome icons, and thus obtain more awesome icons for themselves. And, because I also write a lot of fic and forget to post it to the communities half the time, it will allow people to find that, too. Plzkthnx! :D

Title: The Less Things Change
Rating: Fluffitude
Disclaimer: Still not mine
Summary: -- but this AU is, mostly
Length: 614 words

( It’s easy to keep smiling, when Break is Break and Alice is Alice and Gilbert is still yelling despite having had a solid century to mellow out. )

Title: Legacy
Rating: Brb corrupting your childhoods in a way that is not safe for work
Disclaimer: I do not own anything from Disney except the movies and toys I still unashamedly purchase from them
Summary: In which Birdy wanted it and I felt like writing it, so I did.
Length: 982 words


( She’s a product of all four of them now, all grace and beauty and the barest beginnings of understanding. )





PS: Yes, I am alive, and still an avid Pandora Hearts fan. My time has simply been taken up with RP and personal career stuff of late. I haven't forgotten the fic I've started, and I do intend to finish them. I make no promises as to when.

The first of two batches! I'd really rather post them all in one chunk, but I'm so slow these days, so I wanted to go ahead and show what I have.

( I cannot be expected to come up with a clever cut text at three in the morning after two and a half hours of Photoshop )

I won't hunt you down and kill you if you don't credit, but it'd be nice; that way others can find my icons if you use them. Thanks much!

For the record, here is another reason I have been quiet -- and this is likely the reason I am going to stay quiet, except to write a bit of fic and fling out some icons here and there.

The Pandora Hearts fandom is, in certain places, turning into a cesspool of wank these days.

I am sure some of you are scoffing at my lack of tolerance; I'm aware that there are bigger fandoms who are much, much worse, as far as the petty fighting and idiots and trolls go. And believe me, I'm probably just as annoyed by all the people nagging for scans and translations and people who don't think things through before they speak and the people who exhibit a serious lack of reading comprehension as you are.

But here is something I have noticed. The entire world is plagued by people like this, in all areas, and it is always going to be. It is not the slightest bit fandom-exclusive. And whenever these people start to get a little too loud, the people who are a bit more clever -- by which I mean, mostly, possessing a tendency to think about what they are saying before they say it -- start to raise up as well as a result; they seek one another out as they start to contribute to the cesspool, and they form another group. Then these clever people start congratulating themselves on how awesome they are and everyone gets big heads in addition to having their knickers in a knot, and they start to forget that everyone involved here is a human being.

Yes. I hate to be the one to break this to all of you because quite frankly I would much rather stay underneath my happy little rock and not speak to anyone. But behind all of these stupid comments and nasty comments and sensible comments and funny comments, there are people with their fingers on the keyboard. And the thing with people is that you can never, ever assume anything about them, especially on the internet. Everyone has reasons for being what they are and behaving in the way that they do. It is very possible that these reasons will never be shared. But we cannot forget that those reasons are there, and that we will never fully understand anyone else simply by virtue of the fact that we live in our heads and not theirs.

You all may not believe that anyone could have a valid reason for plaguing other people with silly questions on the internet. I am hard-pressed to come up with any myself, beyond "too young to have learned yet" or perhaps "new to the fandom, which is growing every day". But those reasons are all the ones we really need, and just because I don't know any better ones does not mean they are not there.

I am bothering to type all of this out because in the past I have seen plenty of people inside of fandom and out ripped apart by thoughtless comments coming from people who completely forget that, ahaha, they don't know shit beyond what this person chooses to tell them. I am guilty of causing such hurts, too; it's a difficult thing to keep in mind all the time, this notion that I do not, in fact, know everything. Gods know I have an ego the size of Manhattan and I have plenty of episodes during which I take it into my head that I am better than everyone else.

But I'm not better than everyone else. And neither are any of you.

So everyone just take a step back, please. I know what it is like to think of oneself as a crusader for the noble and valiant cause of correcting the stupidity of the rest of the world, because again, I think quite highly of myself and am just as frustrated by inanity as you are. But being nasty and smug is not the way to fix anything. That's like churchy people trying to convert the heathens by telling them all in the most snotty way possible that they're going to burn in hell, as though simply being churchy somehow makes them a better person and gives them a free ticket to be an asshole.

Protip: All that does is hurt the heathens' blasphemous little feelings and make them hate your entire religion, which you are giving a bad name and thus ruining for everyone else. This is not effective. It does not breed change. It breeds animosity. Also, you are acting like an asshole.

So instead of smacking people down when it's very likely that you don't understand them at all -- again, everyone involved in this is a person -- try showing them what you want them to strive toward. Lead by example. You know that quote, "Be the change you wish to see in the world"? Do that. There are always going to be lost causes, but I promise you that more people are paying attention to you and your behavior than you think, and more people have the potential to be amazing than you are giving credit for. A lot of them are very young, you realize, and have no idea what to do with themselves. They will grow up. The ones who are already grown up will change. Do not underestimate the influence that you can have on strangers on the internet.

And think about this: Were you, at one point, an idiot saying stupid things on the internet?

I bet you were. I was, once. I was a shitty writer for a good long chunk of my life, too. And it was the people who went about their business being reasonable and pleasant and writing good things that taught me what I needed to be instead. It certainly wasn't any of the people who told me I was an idiot saying stupid things on the internet.

Now go do something productive.

LOOK, I STILL EXIST

AND I HAVE BEEN MAKING ICONS

All of these are Kevin Regnard with both of his eyes; one is a Break who passes for a Kevin just so we can have an image of him sort of smiling instead of looking traumatized. I may do a batch of one-eyed Kevins sometime soon, but for now, you'll have to be content with these.

As always, please credit, just because that's how others can find my icons!

( Death death death death LUNCH death death afternoon TEA death death... )

Title: Heatwave
Rating: Nothing exciting here.
Disclaimer: Nope.

Summary: Most of you know by now that their_kingdom is my secretary. She betas my fic, discusses new chapters with me, and tolerates my ego, which is roughly the size of Manhattan and requires a lot by way of sacrificial offerings to keep it happy. But she does more than that, too. She tells me not to push when I should not be pushing. She acknowledges it when I go out of my way to be civil to people, even if it's not directed at her. She gets me books because they're honest and movies because I need to see them, and still comes to talk to me alone sometimes amidst all the brilliant people we know.

And so I have written her a fic for her birthday. I'm really rusty at the moment, so I don't think it's the best I can do. But I wanted it to be a fic just for her, and so it had to be a fic free of all the angst that's been weighing things down of late. It's not a fic about blindness or impending death or that stupid party. It's a fic about Break and Liam being Break and Liam on a day that wasn't overly notable. I believe I've succeeded in that, at least.

Length: 1,626


( Having reached the conclusion that a fan was too much effort, Liam began honestly considering going to the washroom and sticking his head under the faucet in the sink. )

So, yeah, the cancer my mom was diagnosed with last October turned out to be heinously vicious, and she's dying. I don't know how much longer it'll be.

I'm around, but quite of the mind that the world and all the various stupid shit in it can fuck right off, so I doubt I'll be too chatty for a while.

*pleasant Rainsworth smile*

The last bit here, and a variation on coloring hair.

( Using my favorite 'nnf that eye' icon )

With the disclaimer that this is how I do it, and how I like to do it, and that this is mostly to show you how I do it and I don't really care if you want to do it this way or not, I made a "tutorial" of sorts. Here is the way I color the images I use for my icons.

( Break ahoy )